Losing hope :(

I think the goal now is to find a FT job... any FT job that isn't selling something.

I thought about this, and realized having a FT job is more secure than what I'm doing now (no job/side jobs). It's secure because it'll be FT, and I can keep working the job until I find something better.

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I'm looking at admin jobs. Sigh. I need to stop it, but I'm looking at the FT ones. I realize people have to start somewhere, and a few of my friends did start at reception jobs... and worked their way up. I need to learn this mentality that I will grow professionally. I will be able to take my experience and move up.

I'm being more picky though, trying to find ones that aren't office admin. I want to be a department admin instead. I don't want to order office supplies, greet guests and answer the reception phone. :(

Also, the thing with admin jobs is sometimes there's absolutely nothing to do. Some companies are okay with you reading a book, but there's a lot of companies who aren't. I really don't like being bored. When there's nothing to do, of course you could socialize with your co-workers, talk to them to pass the time. A lot of my past positions I didn't have that luxury... I was usually working alone :( I want to work in a team environment.

I'm going to keep my head up high and apply for lots of FT jobs.

I also thought about going back to my old routine, where I worked both a FT and a PT job. Except this time it won't be PT, it'll be more freelancing/casual. This way I can still develop in my field and be able to take that experience forward.

C'mon, I can do it! I have one more week to meet my goal. I can do this.