I feel lost?

Yup, there's a question mark in that title for a reason.

Lately I have been trying to catch up with friends I haven't seen in a while. Friends I haven't really hung out with in ages.

I'm a conservative person, by that I mean that I generally don't like trying new activities that I haven't done before if they're really out of my comfort zone... like camping, hiking, pretty much anything outdoorsy, etc... I really like watching YouTube, doodling, writing in my bullet journal, gaming, doing makeup, and having a chat over good food/drinks. Ok, I'm really simple and maybe I'm really boring?

I also like to be active (sometimes), like going out for walks, going to the gym... I used to do yoga, but I found the beginner classes a bit mentally exhausting and I didn't feel comfortable increasing the difficulty level, because I can't hold poses for very long (I suck at balancing).

And where is this all going? After catching up with friends I haven't seen in a while, I've realized that they have become different people, explored new things and are overall more experienced in other things than I am, since we have become friends. I also feel like I don't have too much in common with some friends anymore... and to be honest, sometimes I find it difficult to message people and ask to hang out. :( I'm really afraid of things getting awkward, or me not having anything to talk about.

I usually ask a lot of questions so that I can get the other person talking, but there are times where I want to talk about what I'm doing too. And only are there some friends who ask about me... or are willing to listen.

Social interaction has always been something that was a challenge for me.

And well I miss that feeling of people able to talk about anything and similar interests with people.

There are apps out there that can help you find new friends. A friend of mine tried it, and hangs out quite often with someone they've met on there. It's pretty great for people who have just moved to a new place and are looking for friends.

I'm eager to try the app... I want to find someone who's like me, but also adventurous too! There are some things I'd like to do more of (like karaoking, trying fun events, etc.) so hopefully I can find a good match!

It's kind of like making online friends, but you're meeting in real life. Ahhh, I remember those days where it was all online interaction and I made some pretty cool friends. Never met them in person though. I wonder what it would be like if we did meet in person??

So yeah, I feel a bit lost...

I finished a blog post today and shared it on social media, I also watched some anime, YouTube videos and am currently doing some laundry. I went for ramen with a friend today and it's just before 8pm right now but I kind of want to go out. Most of my friends are quite busy though... lol. So I might just make dinner, sit back and relax and try this app.