I need to...

The entire day today I spent watching dramas... I managed to finish an entire series in only two days. 

I was able to do this because I stayed home and enjoyed my Saturday.

Tomorrow should be a work day.

Now I realize it and I'm not sure what I need to do. What I want to do is quit my part-time job... I'm not having fun working on it any more. I want to quit after I finish these two projects, but then I still have the other project, so should I wait until I'm done that one as well? 

Or should I take a break in the summer and then come back to it after my contract is done? Erghhhh, I have no idea... 

I miss having a summer break inbetween semesters. I had that all of my elementary, junior high/high school (most) summers, but during University I worked/went to school during the summer every year except for my last year. And now I am working... so no four month holiday here. This is why I want to have my weekends free, so I can relax and do other fun stuff. If I keep working two jobs like this, then I don't really have free time, or I just get super lazy and then feel guilty for not working. 

A part of me wants to wait until after my contract, that way I can submit my letter in person.

But then a part of me is saying, I need to quit now... but if I do that, I'd be handing in a letter by e-mail. And that's not that professional... but there's no confrontation there.

Is it bad that I lose passion in something that I once was infatuated with? 

I don't think I can get bored with video editing. I learn so much whenever I'm editing something, and the work is just so challenging and stimulating. It keeps me excited. I can however, get very lazy with passions. But I can easily get myself to work on my passion if I try...

I just feel miserable when I do my work. It's not a very good feeling. I want to feel happy and excited and inspired when I do my work. Not bored, or feeling like I'd rather do something else, like watching dramas... lol. 

Whoa, stayed away from blogging for too long.

Hello again!

Sorry, I've been away for a while from blogging. Tonight I suddenly had the urge to blog again though, there are a few things on my mind.

But first, some updates.

Telecommuting is difficult. The first few weeks it was okay, working at home here and there, but then after taking a break of two weeks, I found myself struggling to keep up with my part-time job by going to the studio during the weekends to finish my work. Now with Spring/Summer arriving, I just want to embrace the sun and free up my time. But there are so many projects I need to work on before I can do that. I'm thinking after I finish the next big project and the little project, I will submit my resignation letter. It's been a great experience and definitely one that I will use for future reference! I've also gained a new found love for custom keystrokes because of it, as well. :)

My full-time job on the other hand... it's great and all, but not as challenging/stimulating as it was on my first few days on the job. I do enjoy being able to take Japanese classes once a week, and lately I've been trying to integrate it in conversations with my colleagues.

I made some new goals for myself. Since this is a contract position, I've been trying to find some positions to apply for. So far, I applied for an intern position, that isn't really advertised, but the company had an application form on their website, so I figured, "Hey, why not?" and applied. I think right now I am lacking in experience, so internships are a great way to get that experience and a good first step into the industry. I also hope it's paid... if I'm going to be doing internships for a while, they should be able to provide me an income for the time-being until I find a full-time job. :)

If I don't find a permanent full-time job, I will apply for the JET program. It has been one of my goals to go to Japan and work there. I am still a little bit uncomfortable with the idea of teaching English there, because I'm not that great of a person to learn English from... but it'll be a new experience and I will learn a lot of new things, so I will try it!

If I do find a job... then well, I guess I want to make sure I have some good vacation time and an income to pay for the travel/accomodations!

I just feel right now that having no stimulation/challenge is ... turning me into a blob. I mean, with school there was always a goal I had to work towards, or homework I needed to do, procrastination to do... etc. But right now I don't really have that any more, with the exception of my Japanese class and homework... haha but even I procrastinate on that too. I suppose I could try to motivate myself to study every night, instead of the day before I have class...

It's only been 3 months into the job, and this is how I feel. o_o Before, I thought working in an office would be fun, like they make it in the movies... lol. But I guess those positions in the movies are either in marketing or design, not just admin stuff.

This position does have the potential to become permanent full-time, but we'll have to see if there are additional perks, and if there is more job responsibility...