Hello Blogger world and everyone!!
I hope you're doing well :)
It's been a while...
I am listening to some relaxing meditation music as we are speaking here and I thought it would be a good time to let some thoughts out on my blogger.
I have realized for the first time in a long time to never settle for less.
Like...
- Dating someone just so that I'm not lonely
- Dating the wrong person or dating the right person at the wrong time
- Holding onto something or someone that doesn't resonate anymore
- Lowering my prices in my business just to 'make a sale' or to serve everyone...
- Saying yes to every single opportunity/call/meet up that comes my way
and probably a lot more lol. I just cancelled two calls that I had scheduled for later today (I just woke up from a nap) that I literally scheduled in the same week.
I don't usually do that unless it's like WOW OMG call, but I felt rushed to do it and hurried because they were both things I thought I was not doing so well at (help to get sales in my business, and help with dating/meeting the right person).
But I realize that it's okay to be patient for the good things. I noticed I was only in a rush because I recently moved back in with my parents and they have been saying their thoughts and opinions out loud to me to 'go get a job' and the 'I don't know what the heck you're doing, you left your 6 grand a month job, etc.' - it hurts to hear that from the parents you look up to, who are literally doing the same thing, but I digress.
And I was like, you know what...? My timeline is no one else's timeline. I do not have to push myself or pressure myself to do something that I don't want to do!
Also btw, a ton of people got laid off from the company I left, which really sucks :( (there's so many good people I met there) so... I think I'm doing just fine ;)
I quit my job in October 2021 to pursue my dreams full time. And I hadn't really been doing that, but I have been figuring things out as I go.
It's been 10 months since then. I allowed myself to grieve for 6 months, and then the last 3 months have been about implementing the systems, strategies and now, energetics for what I want to call in and for what I've learned <3 I am excited to see what magic unfolds for myself and my life and business and career.
I'm also taking a break from investing in new courses/advisors, etc (at least financially). I have a team of free advisors/coaches right now. Not the most ideal because their capacity is limited, but I am very grateful for having them in my life. Thank you MJ and Anne-Marie, I appreciate you both!
I would also like to get into teaching English online. I have an application ready to go and I need to complete the interview part.
My other goal was also to work in makeup... and I had always wanted to work at Sephora <3 I am being picky with the location right now, so once I feel called to apply, I will.
I also would love to write columns and articles. At my last job, I wrote every single day for social media supporting people online, and also for the online community forums.
I still write for my business today which is awesome, but it would also be nice to write for a niche column. Not sure what kind of niche, I'm pretty grateful and proud of myself for studying various topics throughout the years, so I'd love to write about them hehe
I realized I had grown up thinking that I needed to settle with my first everything.
First job, career, boyfriend, home, etc.
but after having three years of solitude/time to focus on myself and trying new things, and then moving back into my parents house, I realized this is not what I want.
My ancestors did not sacrifice themselves/go through what they did for me to live a settled down/mediocre life. I would be doing a disservice to them if I sat here and settled down.
I know I'm the black sheep of my family. I'm VERY ambitious and mission and vision oriented and I see a lot of the bigger picture but I had been made to be a detailed oriented person (which I also love but I prefer to be the big picture person hahaha I also love that I can do this with my coaching business). And I am also a polymath. I need to do multiple things.
Perhaps I'm remembering who I really am.
These last few days I had been pondering why I feel like my highschool self/university self has blended together. Along with the wisdom of my post-secondary and post-corporate working self.
And I realized it's because I am remembering who I am.
I am in the present and I am acknowledging it and letting myself do what's best for me.
I have also been having so many conversations with people. To the point where I need to say no to a lot of things and I have a hard time saying no tbh
I just love seeing people happy but I also love seeing myself happy, so I will say no when I need to!
I love saying yes to things that fill me up and fill my heart with joy and are a FUCK YES HECK YES kinda deal <3 I love it!!
I really needed to journal this... it's so nice to just type my thoughts out instead of always writing them down in my notebook to myself/vlogging about it haha
Sometimes you just need those moments with your fingers and the keys and the screen.
I am also learning to relax more.
I need to relax more...
I was brought up in an environment where hustling/working until you're exhausted was the norm.
And I realized that doesn't always bring about the most potent results or desired outcome.
In the last three years I have been studying ways to allow more femineity in my life.
To focus on attracting, rather than chasing the things I want in life.
This also includes the way I do sales/marketing. I have a lot of people wanting to help me telling me to do sales/marketing in a masculine way but I'm not having it...
and that is okay.
What is important to me is to conserve my energy and also make the sale.
Conserve my energy and also have a good time doing the things I love, with the people I love.
Conserve my energy and also make an impact and nourish my soulmate aligned clients. <3
Conserve my energy and also have a great time and impact my loved ones, friends and family <3
I have a long ways to go. So much to learn, a lifetime to keep going.
But for now, I will focus on relaxing and attracting the things, experiences and people I want to let in <3
I hope to write in here more often. I don't like to keep things to myself, I love telling people what I'm up to.
It's very therapeutic...
Also I don't work with my psychologist anymore lol so I need to let my thoughts out!! outside of my social media channels lol
I have an appointment booked with my psychologist for later this month. I can't wait to see her!
I can feel my shoulders releasing. They were tense earlier lol.
I would love a massage haha
Thank you for reading and for listening. I'm heading off to watch a recording for a course I invested in last year. See you next time! 😜
XO Kare
