Sometimes I sit here in front of my laptop thinking, "Why do I even blog?" I blog for fun, because I am bored, or because I want to say something.... and even sometimes I blog just for the sake of blogging and reading my own writing, or having it read by others. Thinking deeper however, is the difficult part... I really cannot find the actual reason why I blog. What is the purpose of blogging anyway?? I know I used to rely on blogging so much in the past.
Ever since I was in jr. high, blogging was my sole source of getting attention that I wanted, of getting my thoughts out, and of having some kind of resting place for my emotions to spread. Nowadays, I've found that blogging is mostly pointless when there's no topic that interests me enough to talk about. Perhaps it is the many papers I've written and will write that make my blogging mind dull and inarticulate. For shame.
I suppose this is what really bugs me. There is actually a lot I want to do, but school gets in the way of it. I am usually too busy with schoolwork, or too tired from schoolwork to do the things I used to enjoy. I loved watching anime and dramas. I loved playing multiplayer games on the computer/internet. I liked to sing and record covers of my favourite songs. I also loved reviewing the things I watched, and most of all, I was obsessed with blogging.
So many leisurely past times have been taken away from me. I no longer enjoy my alone time as much as I had used to... but I am optimistic that once school settles down much later, I will be able to find the time I need/want to do those things I desire/desired the most.
